29 November 2010

desperate measures

Sharing a sunny mid-morning snack with Kai on a fall day.

I was so relieved and happy to return to work today. Walking in the door to a cheerful Kai who was very excited to see me ("Ah-yee's home!") lifted my spirits immensely. I cannot begin to tell you how many times that child has managed to save me in so many ways over the past two years. He is such a comfort to my soul and cheers my heart immensely.

I started off my "holistay" last week with an optimistic and light attitude, however I found myself sinking in far too much idle time. As the days dripped by and each painfully slow day felt more like weeks, I began to feel lonely and was backpedaling in a lot of ways. This is not good! Nor is it good that my employers will again be leaving on Saturday for nearly two weeks as they have Hawaii vacation plans. So, I have been fretting over what on earth I will do with myself once they are gone. It just didn't seem possible that I could come up with any real way to be entertained and happy for that long considering my current state of heart and mind. And so, on a whim just a few minutes ago, I bought a ticket to New York City for next Wednesday. I can't recall whether I've ever done anything that spontaneous before and am feeling pretty anxious about the last minute decision. Although, the roundtrip flight only cost $220 (which is actually pretty amazing) and now I know that I have exactly half of the looming 12 days off filled up with something much, much more exciting and promising than sitting around Seattle. So I guess I actually should be heaving a sigh of relief.

So. New York, we will meet again soon!


  1. I don't believe I've ever visited in December. In the past I've always been there in the fall. I'm sure it's very magical with all of the Christmas lights and holiday decorations. My anxiety seems to have dissipated and now I am mostly just excited to be visiting again so soon.

  2. Oh, I am so excited for you! You are right; sometimes too much idle time can feel awful, especially in this cold and rainy season. I think you made a good decision. I am visiting NYC too in about two weeks, with my friends for a special birthday celebration weekend. We are hoping to experience NY in all its festive and magical holiday glory too. : ) The last time we visited, we stopped by Babycakes (I saw you had too!) and went to Central Park. We are only a four hour bus ride away, so it was only a day trip. There's too many things to see to fit in just one day! Are there any places you have been to in New York that you would recommend? Sending happy thoughts your way! <3

  3. hurray! i can't wait for you to come back! this time we need to plan to hang out more :)